Anyone who knows me knows that I do everything at 100%. 100% effort. 100% determination. 100% dedication.
Being Tentatively type 1 was no different. I tried 100% to immerse myself in the world of type 1 diabetes (to the point of living with 34 people with type 1 for a week on Teen Camp!!).
As it comes to an end I have mixed emotions. Firstly, I'm sad, because this experience has taught me more than I could have ever expected. More than I had hoped for. I can honestly say I am a much better dietitian and credentialed diabetes educator than I was just two weeks ago. However I know there is so much more to learn, more than I could ever learn in just two short weeks.
Then, of course I am relieved. Relieved to not have to prick my fingers, change my sites, count my carbs, disconnect, reconnect, hear and respond to beeps all hours of the day and night, do the acrobatic maneuvers it takes to get changed with a pump on, THINK ALL THE TIME, and just do the countless tasks required to live with type 1 diabetes.
Then I am sad again, guilty almost, as I know that this is not what type 1 is all about. And this is why I, and many of you reading this, will never know what it is truly like to live with type 1 diabetes. Type 1 is relentless, it's encompassing, it's confusing, it's time consuming. It can't be ignored, forgotten or even just put on hold. In reality, for those who are not 'tentatively type 1', there is no end date to diabetes, there is no holiday, there are no days off. The attached meme puts this perfectly.
As a type 1 health professional, I knew all of this already. Now, after two weeks, I actually understand all of this. I still may not be able to relate to someone with type 1 diabetes 100%, but I can sure as well give them my 100% compassion and my 100% understanding, which to me is the best education of all.
Thanks to everyone who followed the posts over the past two weeks. I hope they were as insightful for you as the experience was for me.
Finally, thanks again to Medtronic and AMSL for providing all the gadgets and bits and pieces over the past two weeks!